Tabs Currently Open in Safari on My Phone

Kalitta Air – Wikipedia

Because my sister and I drove past an airport while driving from Philadelphia to the Maryland Coast and saw this airplane take off, and it seemed like a secret government thing and maybe the idea of an awesome novel or something. It’s a cargo airline by the way.

ashmolean museum – Google Search

Because on that same trip, my sister mentioned this museum in Oxford to me, and I really want to go. Just in case I can actually make it in the next ten years, this tab is open on my phone so I don’t forget about it.

Table 19 (2017) – IMDb

Because I was surprised that I hadn’t heard of this movie when I heard it about it the year it came out. And I can never think of movies to watch when I want to sit down and watch a movie. Still haven’t watched it 10 months later.

explorers movie – Google Search

Because remember that movie with those ridiculous aliens? It suddenly came to mind, and I want to watch it again if I can find it somewhere. When I watched it as a kid, I thought I’d be like those kids when I grew up.

cat’s cradle – google search.

Because at 30 I did not know what a cat’s cradle is. Seroiusly.

lightning and thunder song – google search.

Because I heard a song on the radio that made me feel pumped up, and I thought it would be a good soundtrack for writing so I don’t fall into self-loathing despair.

Is Peter Van Houten’s ‘Imperial Affliction’ a Real Book? – Bustle

Because, obviously, I was reading The Fault in Our Stars.

bonnie raitt songs – Google Search

Because I was in a bar in Tokyo where the sixty-year-old Japanese artist/bar owner was talking to another woman from San Francisco about how much they both loved Bonnie Raitt, and I wanted to make sure I’d listen to some of her songs. I still haven’t five months later.

toyota alphard – Google Search

Because have you ever heard of a Toyota Alphard? The Uber driver that picked us up from our AirBnB in Tokyo to go the train station was driving this bizarre-looking car that I had never heard of, and I felt like I had come across secret information I did not want to forgot. This tab is supposed to be an enlightened daily reminder of all the things I don’t know that exist in other countries.

anton chekhov – google search

Because he is one of the many classic writers I need to read, and this tab is my near-daily passive aggressive reminder of my failure as a sophisticated reader and worldly, educated person.

508 canal street – Google Search

Because while sitting on a Bolt Bus in lower Manhattan, I saw this sign at a stop light and caught a glimpse of some kind of history I wanted to look up. I immediately opened a tab and typed it in so I wouldn’t forget to look into it. I still haven’t read the search results, ten months later.

whisky gogo – Google Search

Because Whisky a Go Go is apparently a historic music spot in LA that I should check really out one day.

standing split – Google Search

Because I aspire to be able to do a standing split in 2018 and having this tab open will get me closer to that.

Bio of a literary agent

Because one day I’ll get around to querying my next book proposal, and what if this random person I came across is “the one.”


Because I pretend not to use email on my phone and refuse to download the app on principle, but really can’t go a day without checking email on my phone.

Evening Walks With Minjay

Winter days are just so short. Actually, my sister would tell me that’s inaccurate. “Days are the same duration of time, there are no short or long days,” she has said to me several times. And she’s right, of course.

Over the last few weeks, evening walks with Minjay have turned around my idea of winter days.

Ever since the beginning of November, it’s been painful to sit at my desk and watch the beautiful sunset colors in the distance through a window, if I tilt my head in a certain way. It was more than just getting a glimpse of what I’m missing out on. What really bothered me was the feeling that my entire day was being spent at work. Where’s the balance in that?

(Shouldn’t winter work days be reset anyway, from 8 to 4, so people can leave in daylight? This goes to a bigger conversation currently being catapulted by women like Anne-Marie Slaughter and Kim Azzarelli about how ridiculous certain workday and workplace practices are when you really think about them.)

In the past, during winter days, I would customarily get home and collapse indoors, and that usually involved the TV. I love a good TV show, don’t get me wrong, but it would take up an entire evening. It would be either that, or doing more work at home. This winter, due to my schedule, I’ve had to give Minjay a long walk every evening as soon as I get home.

At first, I would just slug through the walks, but then the fresh air and crisp night smells got to me. Slowly, I began to embrace them. I got an idea. For months and months, I had wanted to listen to a few podcasts I’d heard of. It’s one of those thing we put off for no good reason, usually using the excuse of not having enough time. So I spent less than 5 minutes one night downloading Elizabeth Gilbert’s Magic Lessons, Gretchen Rubin’s Happier, and Neil deGrasse Tyson’s StarTalk. I started with Magic Lessons, and after a couple of evenings walks listening to them, I couldn’t wait to get home for my new routine. It became my “Podcast Time.” Instead of a chore, those thirty-minute walks became free time I could do something I had perviously felt I didn’t have enough time for. Thanks to Minjay, instead of the normal winter blues and restlessness, nighttime walks became a special treat.

Slowly, they began to expand. Some nights I’d listen up on favorite albums I missed. Or we’d walk to nearby shops instead of sticking to the same few blocks. A frequent stop has become Barnes & Noble, which I love even more now because they let Minjay in with me. There we roam around. I browse new books (Minjay seems to love the smell) and get inspired. Last night while there, I found this great journal by Knock Knock, which made me pause and think about how we could each see every day, choosing to see the good or the bad. Just like we could choose to approach something as a chore, or make the most of it and turn it into time we look forward to. (Yes, I am a stubborn, eternal optimist).

Knock Knock Journal Optimist

The back of the journal even has clear instructions:

Record your observations about the world and its bright side. Watch, document, and report. 

This brought to mind the idea that people find what they look for.

On the way back home from Barnes & Noble, I did indeed find what I looked for: an exceptionally beautiful night. The stars were so clear. I just didn’t want to go back inside. I was inspired to go up to the building’s communal roof deck with Minjay and just sit for 20 minutes on the dewey couch with my head back, staring straight up at the sky, listening to music. Yes it was cold. Yes it was even a bit uncomfortable. But it was so peaceful. I felt so happy to be breaking out of routine, to be out in nature staring at the night sky, and getting out of the usual rush, rush, rush of weekdays.

While I sat on the wet couch looking up, ‘Tripping Billies’ by Dave Mathews Band came on Pandora randomly. The chorus ‘Eat, Drink and Be Merry…” was the perfect soundtrack for stargazing.

I began to wonder why I didn’t do that every single night, even if just for 5 minutes. All it takes is walking up the stairs. In my three years in this building, I’ve done that just twice.

The thing is, we have to remind ourselves, actively, not to get stuck in our ruts, and to make the most of every day–even if it’s dark outside.

No matter how busy we are, is it really impossible to find 5 minutes every night after all is done, (or even 20 minutes if possible) to step out for a walk around the block and look up at the stars?